A day full of smiles…

Mom’s oldest and dearest friend drove over from Pennsylvania today to spend the day with her. Since it was about eight hours round trip, I was really praying she would find Mom having a relatively good day. And…

Thankfully, my prayer was answered. There was about an hour where she was very restless and almost inconsolable, but the rest of the time, when she was awake, she was in a good place. She smiled more than she has in the past two weeks, and it was encouraging to see her so peacefully content.

I can’t begin to say how nice it was to spend the day with Viv, my second mama. We caught up on each other’s lives and reminisced about all of the good times had in years past. And, like me, I’m sure she wonders what brought us to this point… how this could happen to her best friend, and how wonderful it would be to have some of those old moments back – even if just for a short time.

But alas, it is no longer 1989, we are no longer sitting in her family room on 4th Avenue opening Christmas presents. We are here, in 2012, making the best of what is, because in the grand scheme of things, what other choice is there?

Waking to reality…

I had a dream last night that I went to visit Mom, and she was back to her old self, talking and behaving just as though nothing had ever been wrong… (((Sigh)))…

I’m off today; we were supposed to leave for Mexico tomorrow, but decided not to go. I’ll work next week, but I’m taking today to get a few things done. I’m not going to lie, I was also more than ready for a day to sleep in.

Mom’s best friend is driving over from Pennsylvania for the day, so I want to spend some time there with her. And, hospice just left a message that they have everything they need for the admission, so all I need to do now is call and tell them when to come… Why am I having such a hard time making that call…

Faith

Today I am reminded how important it is to have faith that even in the darkest of situations, you can find a bright, glowing light.

I have been offered a spot as a part time (two pieces per week), paid, permanent writer with Caregivers.com. I can’t even begin to explain how much I needed a sign that everything is going to be alright, and this is it. To be able to combine my passion for writing with my passion for elder care and ALZ advocacy – and to be able to reach a broader audience… it’s like a dream come true…